I have been down in the dumps this week. I don't know why. I'm so glad for Don, he has been trying to cheer me up all week. He even gave me a beautiful blessing. I'm grateful that he can do that for me. Do you ever just get down? Seems to happen every once in a while and it's an awful feeling of darkness and emotional pain. I have wondered all week what brought it on, but I don't know, probably the fact that I'm almost 29, childless, and need to lose weight. Wow I just wrote that and now I'm laughing, I'm funny. So that is the negative, now for some positive things, well lets see, It's Friday and I get 3 days off, I have an awesome Husband, a job, nice car, and money to pay my bills. Hopefully the dumps will leave me and I can get on with my life. Sometime things of the past will come and haunt me for awhile and I think that is what happened this week, things I wish I never had to learn, pain I hope I never have to feel again, sorrow for a loss that was to great to bare alone. While I'm glad the pain has dulled down to some degree the pain hits me in the stomach at times and I just have to cry and then pick myself back up and remember that while the pain was horrible, I have felt true happiness and joy. My happiest memory in my life was when I got married in the Temple, I have never felt anything so peaceful, sitting in the most sacred place next to my best friend, me and him alone for a few minutes basking in the spirit, and the knowledge that this is SO right.
Well This post is weird and I'm about to save it and go back to work. So, sorry if this is too personal, or puts anyone in the dumps, but I'm about to jump out of the dumps and have a better week.
May 2022
4 years ago
