Rambling on.....

I'm sitting here at work (working I promise) and I was going thru someones blog clear back to 2007 seeing the changes in them and there family. I realized that all my teenage life all I wanted was to get married and have kids. The summer after I graduated high school I also started college at BYU-Idaho. I went there for 3 semesters, I lived with my two best friends 1 block away from my moms house in a triple bunk bed studio apartment- I was in the middle- I didn't go on a date at that time or find a really great friend in any of my classes. I worked at the hospital in housekeeping cleaning the rooms. Then my older sister talked me into moving to Boise with her. I had no idea what I was going to do. We lived together for short amount of time and realized we are better friends when we are not roommates. I worked as a CNA in an old folks home and found my first boyfriend, not an old man, but a guy who worked there as well. He was Bosnian and was tall and handsome. Well that didn't last too long maybe 3 months, I had fun with him though!! During all that time I was accepted into the LPN program at BSU and bought my first car a Ford escort, gray. I loved that car! That program lasted 11 months I lived with 3 other girls and grew to love them and had so much fun with them! Then I moved back home when I finished school to go on a mission, well that was put on hold for another year, during that year I worked in Idaho Falls on the 5th floor and became a pretty good nurse. I learned so much. Then a year later I moved to Pocatello to continue school. I went to school full time and worked in the hospital there full time on the TCU. That has to be my favorite job and place of my work history! I loved everyone I worked with and absolutely loved what I did for a living! School was OK too. I did that for one year and then one day my mom told me that I should go on a mission so I did and I went to San Fernando CA for 18 months. Life changing experinece. I loved that time so much, I became so in love with the gospel, I loved those people. I met so many amazing people that I will always love. Then I came home the summer of 06 and started school back at ISU while living at home, that is when I became best friends with my little sister Gina. We had so much fun together. I love her. I eventually needed to get away so I moved to Boise with my little brother Sam. I got a job and lived with Heath and Melissa for 6 months then I found my own apartment and Gina moved to boise and lived with me in our 2 bedroom apartment. This is the part of my life that gets a little messy and turned over. I started to date someone that I never should have and ended up getting pregnant and then I miscarried that sweet little boy at 21 weeks . Then I went thru a breakup that broke me up for about 6 months. That was the darkest time in my life until I started to feel the spirit more and relied on my family to hold me up. Which they did. I had an amazing Bishop at the time to help me as well. Then in Feb of 09 I found Don! Life gets so much better now. I love him and he makes me feel so loved and wanted. Now I'm waiting for the rest to begin...I want a baby so bad, I can't hide it. I do and I hope Heavely Father will send me one Very Very SOON. Needless to say what I expected as a teenager did not happen, but my history makes me who I am today and I like that person, and will continue to grow in many other ways. I love my life today and can't wait to start a family with my wonderful husband. Sorry this was long, but I needed to say it for me!